safe?

There are so many things I have to get out but I'm scared to write them here for everyone to read. There are things that I want to say to him but shouldn't, there are things I am enraged about and things I am depressed about. There are things that freak me out and cause me anxiety. I used to be able to type them out and publish them on this website, because my thoughts then weren't directed towards any of the readers.

Sometimes I think about writing things here just so that they WILL be read and considered, and maybe it will change my life. But I'd also like to think that what we do comes from inside, and that I need to just wait and see what happens organically.

I don't want to lose any readers.
I don't want to lose my voice.